So right now, I've got this silly crush on some girl. And it confuses the hell out of me so I'm just going to write about it for a little while. No one even knows about this blogspot of mine anymore so I doubt anyone will actually read or even notice this.
It's so weird. I have this thing, where... I can't like a girl who
- Smokes
- Wears thongs
- Intimidates the hell out of me.
Yet, she's all of these things. But somehow none of this really matters. I like her. And it bugs the hell out of me. It's like I'm whipped. Erghhhh no. I've unfortunately had very little experience with girls and I've realised that I have very little self esteem, self confidence and that I'm actually very god damn awkward. So it's always felt like if a girl was pretty, she was out of my league. Thus I've always been the reacher.
What's a reacher you ask? Well a relationship has two sides, a reacher and a settler. One that settles for someone that is below their league and one that reaches for someone above their league. Now I know what league I'm in, and what league I should be in if I had any confidence in myself, and they're not even remotely near each other, they aren't even on the same planet. It's been like that for as long as I can remember and so I guess I've never really had confidence with any girl I didn't think I was better than..... Wow I am actually a terrible person and there is something wrong with me.
Okay I'm just going to end this post here before I delve too deep into my own emotions and decide to kill myself.
Here's a picture of me skating and being hipster and obnoxious and stuff.
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